Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Still Here...Still Working...

To start: I will be posting Jesus Promises the Holy Spirit by the end of this year.

When it comes to my spiritual posts, I strive to allow the time necessary for God to reveal to me, through the Holy Spirit, what He needs me to write. Part of this process involves the revealing of the truth within my own heart. I take my spiritual journey seriously--my relationship with God is the most important relationship in my life. Everything flows out from that core interaction between me and God.

This is also why I haven't been posting as frequently as I did the year of 2013. I have been on an incredibly, albeit all-consuming and overwhelming at times, spiritual journey. The things the Lord has revealed to me over the past few months have kept me in perpetual awe of His Lordship. Focusing on God, remembering to praise His Holiness has been wonderful! I have also come to accept, and respect, that I am meant to live the experiences that lend to the spiritual posts of this blog. Living in the Present, focusing on the Lord and studying the Bible. I need to come through to the other side, able to look back at the journey, in order to share the message and lessons as I come to understand them more fully.

Simply put, life must be lived.

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Jesus is the Way to the FATHER

John 14:1-14
    1 "Don't let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me. 2 There is more than enough room in my Father's home. If this were not so, would I have told you that I am going to prepare a place for you? 3 When everything is ready, I will come and get you, so that you will always be with me where I am. 4 And you know the way to where I am going."
    5 "No, we don't know, Lord," Thomas said. "We have no idea where you are going, so how can we know the way?"
    6 Jesus told him, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through me. 7 If you had really known me, you would know who my Father is. From now on, you do know him and have seen him!"
    8 Philip said, "Lord, show us the Father, and we will be satisfied."
    9 Jesus replied, "Have I been with you all this time, Philip, and yet you still don't know who I am? Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father! So why are you asking me to show him to you? 10 Don't you believe that I am in the Father and the Father is in me? The words I speak are not my own, but my Father who lives in me does his work through me. 11 Just believe that I am in the Father and the Father is in me. Or at least believe because of the work you have seen me do. 
    12 "I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father. 13 You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. 14 Yes, ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it!"

There is but ONE God: God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit. He is neither one, nor the other, but ALL at once

Saturday, April 26, 2014

The Secrets Held Within, Chapter 26

Chapter 26, Coming Together
My memory is hazy following the reveal of my father: Chester Abbott: Ava’s father. We are half-sisters…
Everyone parted ways almost immediately after the reveal of this information, with Ava upset, though rightfully. Everything she thought she knew, changed in an instant. I am sure she has many questions. Todd took her home, having offered to return to be with me however I needed, but I politely declined. I need to sort through the plethora of information gathered over the past week, and the shock of the truth. It amazes me how Carter’s possible suicide note was put so far back in the closet with the onset of finding my birth certificate. Stella insisted on staying at a motel on the outskirts of town for the night to give me privacy. She is ever so thoughtful.
I am sitting under the pergola, cocooned within the fragrant garden. The sun is up. The bench is hard wood. I lean my hands on the edge of the seat, leaning forward. The only thing I seem to be able to focus on is my breath.

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Spiritual Cocoon

I am very aware that I have been MIA the past couple of months. The simple reason for this is God has put me in a spiritual cocoon.

What does that mean? Good question.

I have been drawn far inside my heart to the secret place where God and I meet. He is doing some amazing work on my inner self -- Sins I am committing are brought to the very forefront of my being.

The main sin I am to conquer: Frustration.

I have allowed the emotion of Frustration rule many of my decisions. I didn't realize how often I allowed this feeling to coat my heart. I got to the point of embracing this Frustration. I am now at a point where I recognize Frustration in the moment it presents itself, leaving me to ask myself: Why? To what end is this feeling appropriate? What is the purpose of my inviting this Frustration into the house that is my heart?

The other sin I am being led to recognize: Guilt.

I have denied myself joy due to allowing Guilt to dictate my life. I have chosen over and over to let Guilt prevent present day experiences, resulting in personal punishment for choices I made in the past. You know what else? The decisions I have made based on Guilt have transferred this punishment to my family.

I am currently in the 'thick-of-things' with God. I am in awe of the investment He is putting in me, in our relationship. There is more to the restructuring of my spiritual self that I am unable to divulge, at this time. But, when the time is right I will be in a place to share my journey in reference to this spiritual cocoon, once on the other side.

So, for now, I continue to wait on God. I give Him permission to change my heart, my mind, and my spirit to align myself with His Heart and Mind and Spirit, bringing me closer to my God given identity.

Romans 12:1-2
1 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God -- this is our true and proper worship. 2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is -- his good, pleasing and perfect will. 

Thursday, February 6, 2014

I Miss the Color Green!

I also miss seeing a landscape without any snow :)
We have accumulated a foot of snow.
It is white.
And bright.
But not green.
Or warm.
In an effort to remind myself what it is like to not have snow, I have found myself participating in vicarious transportation.
By submersing myself in pictures of the past.
I am pulling up memories of being outside in shorts and tank tops, reveling in the warm sun caressing my being and salty air enveloping my senses.
Not stuck inside with cabin fever because it is too cold to do anything.
Oh, Spring, where art thou?
However, I will say, Winter certainly helps me to appreciate Spring!

Joel 2:21-23
21 Do not be afraid, land of Judah; be glad and rejoice. 
    Surely the Lord has done great things!
22 Do not be afraid, you wild animals, 
    for the pastures in the wilderness are becoming green. 
    The trees are bearing their fruit; 
    the fig tree and the vine yield their riches.
23 Be glad, people of Zion, rejoice in the Lord your God, 
    for he has given you the autumn rains because he is faithful. 
    He sends you abundant showers, 
    both autumn and spring rains, as before. 

Monday, December 30, 2013

The Secrets Held Within, Chapter 25

Chapter 25 Facts and Finds
The next morning, I awake to a note from Stella taped to a full coffee pot. She’s out running. Coffee made, Stella out on a run, I choose to take my cup-o-Joe to the sun porch. A good sit sounded perfect this late morning. I need to set myself straight before I start a long day hunting down answers. As I pursue that secret place with God, it dawns on me that I should read the bible more…
Oh, Lord…here I am, so thankful to You for all You have shown me, all You have done for me…And yet, I find that I want more. Do I need more? You have all of the answers. You have shared some of them with me. How do I keep peace with where I am, while striving for the rest of what is meant for me to have? How do I find that balance?
My dear child, seek My rest and you shall find peace there. Waiting won’t feel such a heavy burden if you lean upon Me. Read the word and you will yet be closer to Me, still.
I sigh. Whether relief, contentment, or resignation I know not – Probably all of the above. Resting my head back, I close my eyes taking a deep slow breath. I feel better than I have in days, having accepted much that is out of my control. I am in that place with God that is secret and sacred. Sorry, can’t share more than that. Most likely because there are no words that exist in this physical world of ours that can possible do justice in explaining what God does with me in this sacred place.

Thursday, December 26, 2013

Don't Touch the Gifts Under the Tree...Until it is Time

This time of year is a perfect tangible representation of God's promises to us, that we must yet wait for. We are called to praise and thank God for the gifts we have yet to receive. Sometimes, I find this quite difficult. But, all month long, as presents began filling up the skirt of our tree, it dawned on me how we practice this act year in and year out. Let me explain:

Kit saw the presents with his name on them the first week of December. He had no idea what lived within the wrapping paper, but...

he knew he was getting gifts! He also knew that he had to wait for those gifts...Wait for what felt like an eternity to a four year old.

Quite frankly, it felt like an eternity to me, as well! I just wanted to watch him tear into his gifts!

The amazing thing: Kit thanked his Mommy and Daddy for his presents - prior to Christmas.

That is how it is with God and His promises to us. We may feel that we are waiting for a perceived forever, but everything is in God's timing -- And, God's timing is perfect. Not just for Him and His purposes, but for us. How wonderful is it that God cares so much for our well-being that He waits until it makes sense to give us our gifts? He has told us He will provide us food, shelter and clothing. He will also give us rest, strength and patience when we need it.

The next time I am frustrated with waiting on God, I am going to praise Him and thank Him for all He has done, all He is doing, and all He will do.

Santa, Jesus, and Kit

We have been struggling with the whole Santa thing since Kit was born. I personally have fond memories of believing in Santa, and even realized while I was young that he wasn't real. My husband was devastated when he found out Santa was merely his parents.

And, what about Jesus? How does Santa fit in with Jesus?

And the questions to come: If Santa isn't real, is Jesus? Is God? How do we know????

So...what do we do? How do we allow our children the fun and experience of Santa, while retaining the truth about this holiday, our Savior, Jesus Christ?

We told Kit that the idea of Santa is the spirit of giving, based off of a man named Saint Nicolas, who inhabited the spirit of giving to the less fortunate; which ultimately came from the spirit of Jesus, who gave the ultimate in gifts.

I am hoping that without creating a physical person who represents Santa Clause, revealing him in more of spirit form, with the idea of giving, Kit will be able to take the complete truth with understanding. The rest is in God's hands.

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never parish, spoil or fade... ~1 Peter 1:3-4

This gift of life after death began with the birth of a Holy Man, The One and Only Son of God.

Merry Christmas.

Friday, November 29, 2013

Batman Quilt Progress Report

The Batman Quilt

The inspiration for this quilt spawned from The Rustic Knight being adamant about keeping all clothing batman related, and me trying to figure out what to do with them that didn't include keeping them in a box, until Kit had children of his own. We bought Kit his new bunk bed a couple of months ago and decided he needed a new blanket to fit the new twin beds...
Lo and behold, a Batman quilt!

Keep in mind, I have absolutely no idea how to make a quilt.
 I am just sewing on a prayer, trusting that this will all work out...
Because I know it will be beautiful. And I know Kit will love this :)

Here are the materials used: 
Batman t-shirts, pajamas, and costumes...
Some clothing I had that I never wear, but
are the appropriate colors
We bought fleece material for the base of the blanket and batman material for the squares;
I have enough to make pillow covers. I bought a total of 5 yards for $35!